Food… BAH!

336.6 – 24 Pounds lost.

So, I have this fear that the “plan” that I am on is all wrong and that maybe I’m fad dieting but just unaware of it.  Yeah, I feel as though I can do this for the rest of my life, but that’s so easy to say only 6 true weeks into it.  I am not following any program, but simply doing what I think is right and what feels right to me.  Only, I suddenly got this fear early this morning that maybe I’ll see success now, because I have SO much weight to lose, and any reduction in my daily caloric intake will shed some pounds.  But what about as I get closer and closer to my goal weight?

The “What if” monster is really showing off today… I guess a lot of these questions need not be answered today, so I need not stress over it?

One thing that I have noticed, however, is that I don’t like eating anything heavy.  I’m okay when I eat a light salad, or munch on some grapes, or eat a piece of fruit or cheese.  But when I eat a full grown meal, I feel heavy and gross and fat.  So maybe it’s my portion sizes when I cook actual meals?

For instance… I created a stuffed pepper recipe that is stuffed with ground turkey and topped with sharp white cheddar.  Let me tell you, it’s amazing — and if this is what I have to look forward to for the rest of my lifestyle change, then bring it on.  However, I ate two of them [well technically one since it was cut in half before I “stuffed” them]  and I felt like death walking.  I felt heavy, I didn’t want to exercise, and I just felt, BLAH.

So, maybe it could be that my portion sizes are off?

Granted, I would have probably ate all six of them 2 months ago when I started on this weight loss journey.  But now — maybe eating just 1 would have sufficed.  It’s hard to believe that my stomach shrunk so much in so little time that such a small amount of food would be satisfying.

I have been getting extremely good at listening to my body.  and I think I need to start eating slower in general and stopping when I’m satisfied.  I know this makes sense in theory, but in practice, I put two peppers on my plate, so I ate two peppers.  I didn’t stop between eating them to see if  my appetite had changed.

I’m thinking this is even more important with me not eating a set amount of times a day and simply eating when I’m hungry.  I’ve found out that on some days I am content with eating only once and others I can eat up to four times.  Small portions and just listening to what my body is telling me.

So, Lesson learned — Stomach smaller = less food (even the healthy stuff)!

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7 thoughts on “Food… BAH!

  1. Hi! The what-if monster likes to chase me around sometimes as well… it stinks! I threw a lot of hissy fits at the beginning of my lifestyle changes because at first it was just working out and I didn’t lose anything (ah, actually gained… like 25 lbs) and I thought, this is bull, how can I go from zero exercise to pretty solid exercise and see no positive change?! Then, as I started changing the way I eat the progress was in little jumps… I’d get really frustrated every time it slowed down and think “If it’s going this slowly when I have 100 lbs to lose, what kind of calorie allowance will I be given when I’m down like 75lbs… 400 a day?!” While I still worry about that, I feel pretty good about when I will hit maintenance mode. You can (theoretically) eat a lot more and and that seems really sustainable… I have a friend who lost 100lbs and consistently burns over 1000 calories a day so she can eat a lot. I don’t plan on doing that, but it’s nice to know she can maintain even with a pretty awful diet.

    • I figure any type of change that I make at this point that doesn’t involve me shoveling food into me at excessive rates will show up on the scale. I’m trying to make myself in to a runner by jogging 5k 5-6 times a week. I’m sure I’ll have to step that up, but right now I’m focusing on just making healthier choices. I sorta read your entire blog this more ^.^ and it’s truly inspiring to see someone continue to go at it and picking themselves up after each and every stumble. I know I’ve been there — thanks for taking the time to share your journey with us! It’s truly helpful.

  2. Ha ha, thank you! I’m in the middle of a major stumble right now… maybe I should read my own blog and inspire myself with my past stumbles 🙂

  3. haha i can soo relate to the stomach shrink.. i always end up like what? i used to be starving after eating this!! but then sometimes i end up binge eating and my stomach expands and i feel hungry foreverrr but i just want to stuff more food down..anyway! i digress haha. thank you for following my blog 🙂 i’m enjoying yours so far!

    • LoL… yeah it’s been weird. Especially the “listening to my body”. I’ve always adapted to the portion sizes that my parents gave me. Often times I would make my plate based on being hungry (my eyes were apparently more hungry than I was lol). Once it was on my plate, I just ate it. I never stopped to check to even see when I’m full. Over the last few meals, I’ve been decidedly “halving” my portions and even putting away food instead of leaving it out for leftovers when I want to nibble. I took the advice of some weight loss sites and started eating more slowly and stopping when I’m satisfied. But you’re ABSOLUTELY right about the shock when I am full… especially when there’s till lots of food on my plate 🙂 Thanks for the comment, I’ve been reading your blog, it’s truly helpful!

  4. I know what you mean about those times you eat more and how it makes you feel. I, too, feel better when my portion sizes are smaller. But what’s up with eating a large bowl of lettuce that has olive oil and vinegar and white onions? Why should I feel like Jabba the Hut when I eat it? But I do! It’s especially true when I’m eating a slice of cake. I’ve been eating awfully for maybe a year now. No wonder I have gained so much weight! And now I’m trying to lose 40 pounds of fat. My body is composed of 80 pounds fat, 120 pounds muscle, and about 60 (I think) pounds of water. I need to up my water intake and definitely cut the fat in the diet.

    • The people here at Starbucks probably think I’m crazy, I actually laughed out loud at the Jabba the Hutt statement. I think once I master portions I will be in a better situation. Over indulging is over indulging whether it’s lettuce or chocolate cake. I’m working on fixing the mental causes of over eating as well. Thank you for your comment 🙂

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