Things I’ve learned… and um… Re-learned, Part 2

The last few months have been really trying on my fitness and weight loss goals.  I’ve maintained when I should be in serious losing phase.  I’m not making excuses, simply observations to make me get better in the long run.  Some things that I’ve learned about myself:

I push myself way too hard.  I tend to go at full capacity, then when there’s nothing left of me I blame myself for failing.  I don’t even give myself a break for all of the hard work and effort that I put forth every day.  I need to lighten up, this journey is a lifestyle change, not a sprint.  I have to be ready to not only roll with the punches but also to slow down and give myself kudos for my accomplishments.

I tend to lose motivation.  I work a lot… and by a lot… I mean a lot.  My work weeks have been 60+ hours now for a few months.  It’s not only tiresome but draining and it leaves me too tired to do much of anything.  In addition to working so much, I’m also taking 9 credits in school and I have a 4.0.  The compromise has been exercise and sleep.  An extremely deadly mix for a healthy body.  What happens when my weight loss fails due to this deadly combo?  I lose all hope and I go off of the deep end.  I go back to the rich foods that comforted me and next thing I know I’ve gained 10 pounds.

I need a buddy.  I need to find someone that will hold me accountable when things in my life gets hectic.  I’m finding that everything is fine and dandy on the fitness level when I’m not working myself to death and during breaks from school.  I am like a drill Sargent during those times.  But when my work load gets out of hand and I have term papers due at midnight, I start to slip back into my ways.  I stop tracking my food, the gym sessions become further in between and I start snacking as a means of feeling better.

I can be inspirational.  A quote that’s kept me up at nights recently is “Don’t let life discourage you; everyone who got where he is had to begin where he was.”  Richard Evans said that and I want to kiss him for it.  It’s so true.  We always see that thin and fit person and we start to feel badly for ourselves, well at least I know I do sometimes.  But the truth of the matter is that they started somewhere as well.  They have a journey, whether it was losing weight and getting fit after pregnancy or finally meeting their goal weight after a year long struggle.  That’s just it, everyone started somewhere. So shall I.

Knowing these things about myself will only get me even closer to my fitness goals.  Now that school has ended for the semester, I’m going to treat myself to some awesome workouts and some home cooked healthy foods.  My body can’t wait for it.  I deserve it.

I’m still here… just going one step at a time, learning one day at a time!


4 thoughts on “Things I’ve learned… and um… Re-learned, Part 2

  1. Good on you! You’ve identified the areas that need change – now you’ve got to find ways to make them work. Remember, you’ve come this far and already have the skills you need to keep progressing… It’s about making the most of that.

    And if you’re serious about wanting a buddy, I’m just an email away! Peonutty (at) gmail (dot) com

    • I agree. I’ve learned so much. Enough that I see such a major difference in my response to slipping. Instead of plunging in either further I pick myself up and push myself towards being fired up and motivated.

      Thanks for the offer to be my buddy 🙂 I will definitely take you up on that offer! Thanks 🙂

  2. You will make it. You have the drive =) I understand what you mean by being “go go go” all the time. I think a lot of us are raised here to be able to accomplish things very quickly if we put our minds to it but that isn’t always how it works. It is a lifestyle and I agree that all of us are challenged. You should look into a book called the “4 agreements.” It talks a lot about some of this stuff. We usually get frustrated when “our best” is not as good as we think it should be, but how crazy is that right? Our best should satisfy us (not that that is easy). We need to take a minute and realize that most people ARE NOT trying their best. Some people give up too easily on things. But even they are challenged by some other means. “Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle.” I think because we live in a society where not too many people speak about their TRUE lives we forget that EVERYONE is struggling in one way or another even if we can’t see it. Best wishes.

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